NightPhoenixFire

I find myself facing a darker part of my life just now. Society would have me cover it up and pretend everything is "fine" but is that really useful to anyone? I keep myself to myself and so am not thrusting my troubles in peoples faces. I am still capable of being there for people, I can still help others and even make them happy so why does society declare that unless we internalize everything and hide ourselves we are weak? I argue that to be honest is strength, to know that people will judge, look down upon you but still show yourself honestly is an act of strength. People know what they are dealing with when you are honest and no mind games ensue. Perhaps if someone sees another persons suffering, survival and healing then they will believe it is possible for them to deal with hardships when they come close to home. That is my view of the situation. That view is in no way to look down upon any other method of dealing with, or not dealing with, situations. I do not do that.
 I am always intrigued and fascinated by people who display themselves, there deepest emotions and such through their art and I highly value such honesty in creativity. I think it is vastly important to the creator and the viewer.
 I would love to be able to do so but I always seem incapable of putting my ideas onto paper, how on earth do you force yourself to do it?
 To all those suffering out there and sharing it in art or any other form I applaud you and I am inspired by such things.
 I suppose in the end our suffering just greatans our capacity for empathy and understanding. I hope for healing rather than distraction. I hope for strength and self knowing. I hope to love life again. I hope this for all others in such dark places where the only thing to hope for is death.
 Keep creating, it is fuel for the soul and food for the imagination and therefor inspires dreams and that creates change for an individual and for the world. 
 There is no real reason for this post other than to share why I have been so inactive on here, despite more modelling work, and to show how inspiring I find many of you and your art. 

That is me back from a trip visiting friends and making new ones in Norway and a little bit in Sweden. Once again I find myself having to play catch up with images but I am at the stage now I have done more modelling work than I can put up :S It makes things a little tricky but I shall endeavour to show images from recent shoots as the photographers have all been so nice, skilled and creative that I want to honour them by showing our work together. It means a lot to me.
 This is not made easy by the fact my last computer is in a sort of computer-coma state and most of my work is on that, I will find a way to get it out of the machine, somehow!
 Have a nice spring night folks
 Kat x

Well its been a while hasn't it folks? My appologies for that but I needed a wee break from the online world and then was without internet when I moved for a few months. Now that I am back I am determined to not be daunted by all the catching up to be done however I will take the opportunity now to say thanks to all those that favourited my work as I will be unable to thank all personally but it was lovely to come back to.
 Life has been full of modelling, viking reenacting and other things and I shall endeavour to update this portfolio but it may take some time. Thanks for bearing with me folks
Kat x

I know I have not really been around and have spent a wee while as somewhat of a hermit camping, fighting, travelling and crafting but i do want to wish you all an excellent new year and hope a good christmas was had. This last year has been a complete rollercoaster for me ups and downs but generally a good ride i suppose. Anyway who knows what the year ahead will hold.
Take care all

I have decided to get back to practising my sketching and such so if anyone out there would like some artwork (and i use the term loosely) done of them then all you have to do is provide me with the starter image and i will see what i can do. I by no means promise anything spectacular since this is for practise but i promise its free